nedjelja, 20.04.2008.

/.x./...am I supp0s3d t0 b3 haPpy; wh3n aLL i 3v3r wanT3d...c0m3s with a pric3...?!?!.../.x./



++ anD Sh3's s0 scar3d t0 g3t cL0s3 t0 a n y 0 n3...'caus3 3v3ry0n3 that saiD "I'll b3 th3r3!" l 3 f t...
sw3 pr0Lazi...cini s3 ka0 da st0jim na mj3stu, a sw3 0k0 m3n3 id3 daLj3...sam0 ja 0staj3m 0wdj3, na ist0m mj3stu, b3z pr0mj3n3...
ljudi 0dlaz3, 0stawljaju m3 samu...n3 shwacaju da m3n3 t0b0li, da ja t0 n3 m0gu p0dnj3ti...
0na j3 u m3ni 0stawila w3liku prazninu i b0l..pr0mj3nila sam s3 0d t0g dana...nisam j0j uspi3la r3ci k0lik0 mi znaci, k0lik0 j3 zapraw0 w0lim...0db0jn0 p0nasanj3, ruzn3 ri3ci,n3d0statk paznj3...sw3ga t0ga mi j3 jak0 za0...da sam bar ikak0 znala...r3kla bi sw3 st0 mi j3 na dusi...
ziw0t pr0lazi, 0kr3cu s3 stranic3....pr0sl0st 0staj3 za nama,buducn0st nas c3ka...j3sm0 li swj3sni w3lik3 pr0mj3n3?...j3sm0 li spr3mni prihwatiti 0n0 st0 d0lazi?...
n3, ja nisam spr3mna, niti n3cu biti...0swrc3m s3 za pr0sl0sti, za swim 0nim ludim dj3cjim danima...gdj3 j3 t0 0stal0?...
iza m3n3...zauwi3k...
p0gl3d0m u m03 0ci, widj3t c3s da s3 nista n3 mj3nja...sw3 st0 j3 bil0 j3 i 0stal0...zast0?...nitk0 n3 zna...
izwana uwidjam pr0mj3n3, d0k dub0k0 u s3bi 0sj3cam j0s ist3 b0li ka0 i prij3... j0s uwi3k sam zat0c3na u s3bi...
p0n3kad s3 pitam zast0 bas ja m0ram patiti...st0 sam ja skriwila da s3 tak0 0sj3cam...?!?...uwi3k d0dj3m na ist0-tak0 mi j3, 0cit0 suđ3n0...
nitk0 m3 n3 shwaca...nitk0 niti n3 p0kusawa...swi m3 cudn0 gl3daju kada kaz3m n3st0 0zbiljn0, n3st0 st0 m3 muci...
h0c3 li ikada shwatiti?!...pitam s3...
nadam s3 da c3 sw3mu 0w0m3 d0ci kraj...j3dn0m...

++ laught3r anD smiL3s is what sh3's ab0ut, but t3ars anD sadn3ss is what sh3's hiDing fr0m...
sr3ca...smij3h...prijat3ljstw0...ljubaw...razL0zi zb0g k0ih j3 0na sada sr3tna...zb0g tih mal3nih stwari 0smj3h j0j s3 wrati0 na lic3...
p0n3kad su sitnic3 0n0 st0 j3 bitn0, 0n0 st0 j3 ispunjuj3...
m0z3s widj3ti da 0na p0n0wn0 ziwi...n3 0nim zar0m ka0 prij3, ali trudi s3...shwatila j3 da j3 starija j3dnu g0dinu...n3 zna da li bi tr3bala biti sr3tna ili tuzna...pr0sl0st-dj3tinjstw0...buducn0st-0drastanj3?!?...
ni3 j0s swj3sna nic3ga...ali p0stati c3 ubrz0...n3k3 stwari su j0j jasnij3...laks3 j0j j3 shwatiti sw3 0n0 st0 pri3 ni3 znala...
nap0k0n j3 shwatila da tuga n3 p0maz3,..da n3 wri3di 0dustati...shwatila j3 da m0ra stati na n0g3 i gl3dati na swij3t drugacijim, 0cima punim sr3c3...
nadajt3 s3 da c3 j3 p0taknuti n3st0 da s3 rij3si sw3ga 0n0ga 0d prij3...da 0stawi swa ruzna sj3canja za s0b0m,a da 0na sr3tna p0n3s3 sa s0b0m...

++p0zdraw m0im dragim 0s0bama...0nima k0i mi daju snag3 za daLj3...w0lim was...jak0...++



++ s0m3 w0rds ar3 b3tt3r l3ft unsaiD...
s0m3 t3ars ar3 b3tt3r l3ft unsh3d...
s0m3 f33lings sh0uld just b3 f0rg0tt3n...
anD s0m3tim3s w3 just n33d t0 f0rg3t 0ur h3art d3mands... ++

subota, 22.03.2008.

/.x./Then. She. Seemed. To.Remember.Something. And.
Came. Back.To /.Look./ At. Him. With.Wonder. "Are.You.Happy?" /.x./



++I smiL3 'caus3 I d0n't want my t3ars t0 fL0w...3Ls3 th3y wiLL t3LL th3 st0ry 0f my w0und3d h3art....
swima se cini da sam weDra 0s0ba...uwij3k nasmijana, spr3mna na Lud0sti...uwij3k tu za zabawu...
n0, iza sw3 t3 w3drin3, st0ji j3dna tuzna 0s0ba...j3dna dj3w0jka k0j0j j3 upr0past3n ziw0t...sw3 j0j s3 cini tmurn0, sr3ca n3 p0st0ji za nju...sw3 j0j s3 t3m3Lji na b0li...ziw0t j0j nij3 p0tpun, a zast0?!?...0na n3 z3Li r3ci, drzi sw03 tajn3 za s3b3....
saDa j3 g0t0w0...zat0c3na j3 u tj3sk0bi, tuzi, tami...h0c3 li s3 izwuci?...n3...nikaDa s3 n3c3 wratiti 0na stara Cuca...nikaDa..
...0ziLjci na nj3n0m srcu p0st0j3 i pratit c3 j3 kr0z cij3Li ziw0t...
nitk0 n3 zna zast0 pati, a n3c3 ni saznaTi...
swatk0 ima sw0ju pricu, swatk0 n3st0 krij3...n3tk0 glumi sr3cu, n3tk0 tugu, n3tk0 raz0car3nj3....iza swih tih laznih lica st0ji ranj3n0 src3, k03 nikada n3c3 zacij3liti....
...0staj3 sam0 naDa za b0Lj3 sutra...nadanj3 za zab0raw0m, za pr3stank0m t0g 0sj3caja k0j3g n3 m0z3m0 pr3p0znati...

++aT tim3s w3 wiLL b3 l3ft b3hind, w3 will b3 br0k3n, and w3 will b3 damag3d. But th0s3 wh0 stay, gLu3 Us t0g3th3r, and r3pair 0ur h3arts asr3 wh0 w3 call fri3nds!...
+++prijat3lji s3 najb0lj3 pr3p0znaju u t3skim tr3nutcima...n3kad pr3kasn0 shwatis tk0 ti j3 prijat3lj...ali ja sada znam da sada imam d0sta 0s0ba u k0j3 s3 m0gu p0uzdati, k0j3 c3 mi uwij3k p0m0ci...
...p0tr3bn3 rij3ci, d0lazil3 su sam0 tak0...lij3cil3 su mi srce,...i odnosil3 tu t3sku b0l...ti tr3nutci u k0jim sam mislila da cu p0ludj3ti, da n3cu izdrzati bili su mi laksi uz m0j3 najdraz3 prijat3ljic3...hwala wam...
+++raz0caraLa sam s3...dw0licna kucka m3 izdaLa...r3kLa j3 0n0 sta m3 najwis3 b0Li...prijat3Ljica sam0 p0d n3kim uwij3tima?...shwacas li da m3 t0 b0li?!?...n3, mislis sam0 na s3b3....j0s j3dn0 razcar3nj3...nisam t0 zasluziLa...
...nada umir3 p0slj3dnja...

++m0zda 0waj p0st n3ma smisla, aL wj3rujt3,...ja nisam d0br0...n3tk0...j3 za t0 kriw...a taj n3tk0 c3 mi t0 pLatiti...sa mn0m s3 nitk0 n3 zjB...btw...p0zZam m03 Bubic3...++




++It's saD wh3n p30pL3 y0u kn0w b3c0m3 p30pl3 wh0 kn3w,
wh3n y0u can waLk righT past s0m30n3 Lik3 th3y w3r3 n3v3r
a big part 0f y0ur Lif3, h0w y0u us3d t0 b3 abL3t0 taLk f0r h0urs
anD h0w n0w y0u can bar3Ly 3v3n l00k at th3m...
It's saD h0w thingS chang3...++

četvrtak, 06.03.2008.

+++..b3GinninGs ar3 usuaLLy ScaRy anD 3nDinGs ar3 uSsuaLLy saD, buT iT's th3 middL3 thaT c0untS. y0u haw3 t0 r3m3mb3r ThiS wh3n y0u finD y0urs3Lf aT th3 b3GininG!..+++


++n0wi p0c3tak...n0wi bL0g...m03 n0w0 Lic3....
ew0...0dlucila sam naprawit n0wi bL0g, p0st0 s3 t0Lik0 t0ga pr0mj3niL0, a 0naj bL0g m3 p0dsj3ca na sw3 0n0 prij3...a t0, n3 z3Lim....

++...d0sta ''dawn0'' zap0c3La j3 n0wa g0dina...
0na stara j3 za s0b0m 0stawiLa b0Lna sj3canja, k0ja su sad zabiLj3z3na u nasim srcima, iak0 j0s uwij3k ziw3....
+++ st0 j3 sw3 0staL0 za nama, za mn0m...3 t0 j3 w3c t3z3....
+++ kraj 8. razr3Da-kak0 nam j3 biL0 d0br0,..j0s s3 uwij3k sj3cam swih 0nih gLup0sti,pr0f3s0ra, Ljubawi....
+++ 0n0 prediwn0 Lj3to0-swaki dan pr0w3d3n na Skw3ru uz 0nu Ludu 3kipu...
+++ uPisi u sk0Lu, d0m....
+++ 1.9-nasa 0pr0stajka 0d Lj3ta, i 0d nas k0i sm0 0tisLi u Ri...
+++ prwi Dan sk0L3-za m3n3 j3 bi0 ziwi t3r0r....
+++ 0dLazak dwiju pr3diwnih cura-T0nk3 i M3ggy,..j0s s3 danas pitam st0 ih j3 muciL0,...j0s i danas z3lim r3ci n3k3 stwari T0nki, iak0 znam da j3 pr3kasn0....
+++ Ludi Dani u d0mu-0pijanja, Ludar3nja p0 n0ci, bj3zanja....
+++ n3zab0rawLj3ni Dani sa m0im P.3.P.B-icama....
+++ pr3krasni tr3nutci s Karm3n....
+++ swađ3....
+++++ d0sta j3 t0ga 0stala zamn0m, d0sta b0lnih, aLi i sr3tnih usp0m3na...p0c3tk0m n0w3 sam sama s3bi r3kLa da ''n3k3'' stwari wis3 n3c3 biti ist3...tak0 j3 i biL0....

++pr0mj3na...d0sta w3Lika....
+++ d0sta sam s3 pr0mj3niLa 0d 0dLaska u Ri...
+++ n3ki su r3kLi na b0Lj3, a n3ki na g0r3....
misLim da j3 pr0mj3na jak0 p0zitiwna j3r sam shwatiLa n3k3 stwari,...p0staLa sam snaznija, sigurnija u s3b3, t3 sam shwatiLa da sam JA JA i da mi n3 tr3ba nitk0 da t0 d0kaz3m....
0dLuciLa sam s3 maL0 pr0mj3niti u w3zi ''Ljubawn0g'' ziw0ta...maL0 s3 0dr3ci n3kih stwari (pa h3LLo0u, ipak j3 k0rizZma)...i d0sada uspij3wam...

++prijat3Ljstwa....
+++ Hmm...d0sta prijat3Ljstawa j3 paLo0 u zab0raw...0c3kiwaLa sam supr0tn0, misLila sam da c3m0 zauwij3k 0stati zaj3dno0, biti uwij3k tu j3dna d0 druG3, aLi widim Da t0 nij3 taK0...0dLask0m sa Raba s3 t0 pr0mj3niLo0, jako0...iako0 s3 saD p0kusawa d0ci na staro0...aL, ja znam i drzim s3 t0ga Da j3 n3m0guc3!...
+++ uwij3k j3dna uz drugu,...Lud3 n0ci...izLasci....t0g wis3 n3ma...bezbr0j d0n3s3nih 0b3canja....n3staLo0...
+++ biL3 i 0staL3 zaj3dno0...j0s uwij3k b3stic3...swaki dan pr0w3d3n zaj3dno0...n0wa iskustwa...j3din0 sm0 s3 nas dwij3 drzal3 n3kih 0b3canja i d0g0w0ra, j0s uwij3k sm0 n3razdw0jn3,...j3dnak3?!?...ma tw0richi...Lo0L...
+++ Ludjaci...Daaa...0staLi sm0 j0s uwij3k swi isti...n3k0lik0 njih s3 udaLjiL0, pr0mj3niLo0...aL zabaw3 j0s uwij3k ima...swaka sub0ta j3 LuDa....swi praznici-isti...ma ++THUMBS UP++....
+++ swaki dan...sk0r0 swaki tr3n...zabawLjam0 s3,...gLupirram0...sr3tna sam zb0g tr3nutka kaD sam j3 up0znaLa...
+++ u razr3du...ma uwik skupa...sw3, sw3 dj3Limo0...tajn3 su sw3 raz0tkriw3n3,..n3ma raz0car3nja, bar s3 nadam...

++misLi...0sj3caji...rasp0L0z3nja....
ah...c3sto0 sam u d3pri...n3ki misL3 da n3am zb0g c3ga, aL 3t0...pr3wis3 s3 t0ga d0g0diL0, prewis3 j3 t0ga iza m3n3...sw3 m3 t0 b0li i n3 m0gu zab0rawiti...sw3 n3staj3, pr0lazi...0sj3cam s3 zat0c3n0m u brz0m wLaku, k0i nikak0 da stan3, a u m3đuwr3m3nu ja gubim w0lj3n3 0s0b3...nadam s3 da c3 t0 n3stati....
n3kad sam sr3tna...w3s3lim s3 zb0g maLih stwari...swaka stwar m3 m0z3 razw3s3Liti, ali sw3 d0k n3 shwatim zapraw0 r3aLnu stranu sw3ga...
+++ zaLJublj3na-nisam...nit cu uBrz0 biti....
+++ ja sam wam jako0 k0mpLicirana 0s0ba, tr3ba m3 skuzit...i Da, n3kad n3 widit3 st0 zapraw0 z3Lim r3ci,...pa s3 maLo0 p0trudit3....

++p0zZam 0n3 0s0b3 k0j3 su mi tr3nutn0 jak0 wazn3 u ziw0tu....znat3 sami...
++



++I say y0ur nam3 iN siL3nc3....
Y0u d0n't wana h3ar it righT n0w...
Th3 3y3s 0f th3 ciTy ar3 c0unting th3 t3ars faLling d0wn...
3ach 0n3 is a pr0mis3 0f 3v3rything y0u n3v3r f0und...++